These days many things been going through my mind. Work has been so busy, no time for anyone else, no time for my gf. By the time I get home, I already evry tired. Normally I always fall asleep at work, so I try to get more rest.

These few momnths, I lost two of the most important ppl in my life. And now, I feel like another will run away from me. Feel very lonely, today sadness just doesnt explain how I feel.

What do you do when anything you say doesnt matter. No matter how much you try to show them, never works. How much you hope for thinsg to get better, never comes true. At times like these, I realise that no matter how bad thinsg become, how sad you are, how lonely, you always have your family. These few days I feel like everything is against me. I never did anything wrong but yet, I feel so sad, so empty inside. I need someone to talk to but nobody is there for me. Nobody can help me. I wish my family were here now. I never hurt anyone, was always a gd bf, always tried my best, treat people the way I would want to be treated. I try my best but it seems like its never enough. Everything around me seems so happy, but I feel like I'm the only one thats sad. Cheer up Terry! You never did anything wrong. You know it and the Gods know it. Be gd in life and happiness will be granted to you! Dont let others put you down. I miss you por por miss you so much Mum. I'm always your gd grandson. I know your there to be my angel when I need you both. I love you so both so much. I'll sleep now, see you both in my dreams ^^